RUE: I'm sorry, I have zero fucking idea what you just said.ĪSHTRAY: It doesn't matter. So what the fuck you want?ĪSHTRAY: You don't want to try nothin' new? I'm just trying to stack my cash, pay off our mortgage. RUE: I thought you had Asperger's till I realized you're just a prick.ĪSHTRAY: This is a fickle industry. RUE: Yeah, well, the world's coming to an end, and I haven't even graduated high school yet.
RUE: What, you think 'cause I went to rehab, I stayed clean? RUE: But low-key, is Ashtray in the back? RUE: I mean, ever since I gave my life over to my lord and savior Jesus Christ, things have been, like, really good. RUE: Which was sort of like a dead-on observation for Fezco, who's not normally revolving in the same direction as planet Earth. I'm thinking to myself, like, look like somebody Rue would get along with. She came in yesterday lookin' all Sailor Moon and shit. And Jules had just moved to town.įEZCO: There's some new girl in town that I think you gonna be friends with.įEZCO: Shit, I don't know. RUE: It was the end of summer, the week before school started. You're about to start a brand-new chapter. REHAB GROUP: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. RUE: I spent a good portion of the summer before junior year in rehab. But I didn't want to look like an idiot, and I didn't want to fuck up everyone's night. Go to the hospital and be kept alive by machines and apple juice. RUE: I remember the first time it happened to me I got so scared I wanted to call 911. And then suddenly.you give it air again, give it life again. And everything you feel, and wish, and want to forget, it all just sinks. And everything stops: your heart, your lungs, then finally, your brain. And every time you breathe, you breathe out all the oxygen you have. That moment when your breath starts to slow. And I know it all may seem sad, but guess what? I didn't build this system, nor did I fuck it up. or to be honest, anyone capable of giving on iota of good fucking advice. SYSTEM: Attention, students, we need to lockdown. RUE: I just showed up one day, without a map or a compass. LESLIE: Why is the co-payment $300? Rue, did you eat breakfast? RUE: And at some point, you make a choice about who you are and what you want. GIA: Did you see that video of the beauty queen who got acid thrown on her face? How could he suddenly be out of network? (.) I can't afford it. LESLIE: You said the doctor was in our network.
RUE: Until every second of every day, you find yourself trying to outrun your anxiety. RUE: And every now and then, if I focused too closely on the way I breathed. TEACHER: Does anybody have any idea of what a preposition might be?
Just that the world moved fast and my brain moved slow. RUE: I don't remember much between the ages of eight and 12. LESLIE: And your favorite, Britney Spears. Plenty of great, intelligent, funny, interesting, and creative people have struggled with the same things you struggle with. LESLIE: Honey, it's just the way your brain was hardwired. RUE: It's not like I was physically abused. THERAPIST: I'd say she's suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder. RUE: And then, without warning, a middle-class childhood in an American suburb. RUE: My mother and father spent two days in the hospital, holding me under the soft glow of the television, watching those towers fall over and over again, until the feelings of grief gave way to numbness. BUSH: I can hear you, I can hear you, the rest of the world hears you, and the people who knocked these buildings down will hear all of us soon. I put up a good fight, but I lost, for the first time, but not the last. over and over by the cruel cervix of my mother, Leslie.
Then one day, for reasons beyond my control, I was repeatedly crushed. Sloshing around in my own private, primordial pool.
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